Two Steps Forward, Three Steps Back

There are days that I have no idea how I am able to get anything accomplished. Today is one of those days. Yesterday was too.

I am feeling so exhausted this week. Kenah Jo had tubes placed in her ears on Monday morning. I thought that she'd be sleeping great after her surgery because her ear infections would be healed. Ha. Dream on! She is not sleeping well at all-nap or nightime! For instance, last night I finally got her down about 10:30. She was up 4 times before midnight. Then, down again at 12:15 and up at 3:45 and 5:45. If you've never experienced extreme sleep depravation for several months on end - 11 to be exact - well, um...it sucks. She wants to nurse all the time. She's not eating well. She's grumpy. Clingy. I cannot wait for this storm to be over. I am so burnt out.

I feel like I run around here like a chicken with her head cut off. Dishes. Cleaning up every bodies messes. Laundry. Dirty diapers. Cooking. Cleaning. Bath time. Whiny babies. More dirty diapers. More laundry. I feel like a mouse running on a wheel that never stops and has no end.
Don't get me wrong - I LOVE my life. I adore my family. I would not happy doing ANYTHING other than what I do. But today I could use a break. You know, not getting enough sleep fogs the lenses of the rest of life.

Just for the record: at the end of each day (about 11:30 p.m.), when I have my sweet girls tucked into bed (for an hour or so anyway) there is a sense of accomplishment and an enormous amount of contentment that overwhelms my heart and brings peace and joy to my soul.