philly.

I'm in Philadelphia with my hubby until Monday ... Lovin' every minute of it! :)

I'm not asking for another thing.

Tonight we had prayer group at our house. It was so refreshing to spend such time with my God. Just sat and listened. Poured my heart out. Listened. Got real. Listened. Bore my soul. Listened.
It's not that I don't normally spend time in prayer or don't hear from God, but tonight was different. It was different and it was amazing.
Tonight I feel as if I've recieved new eyes to see with. A renewed heart. A peaceful soul.

Tonight God, I'm not asking for another thing.

when it rains, it pours.

1. It's a rainy day. Gloomy, yucky, rainy day.

2. My parents, bro-in-law and sis-in-law are on their way to our house. Looking forward to them being here with us this weekend.

3. Had lunch and spent time with good friends today. I felt sad when they left. Love you. I know you will be by my side.

4. Wishing it were this time next week, actually. Uncertain and difficult circumstances have left me feeling pretty uneasy lately. Heavy heart. Overwhelmed mind. God knows though. Actually, what else really matters?

5. Everything happens for a reason.

priceless.

This past week has been one of the most difficult weeks we've ever experienced. Although I cannot share all that's happening, I did want to share something I saw this morning that made me laugh harder than I have in quite awhile.




She's her daddy's girl. :)

heal the wound but leave the scar.

I came across this song a couple days ago by Point of Grace. The first time I heard it, I loved it. Today, though, the message of this song has dug deep into my soul and has ministered to me in ways that I cannot express with words. God is stirring my heart yet bringing peace to my soul more than ever before it seems. I am, and will be, waiting for Him. Waiting on Him. Waiting in Him.


Here's the words:

Heal the Wound
I used to wish that I could rewrite history
I used to dream that each mistake could be erased
Then I could just pretend
I never knew the me back then

I used to pray that You would take this shame away
Hide all the evidence of who I've been
But it's the memory of
The place You brought me from
That keeps me on my knees
And even though I'm free

Heal the wound but leave the scar
A reminder of how merciful You are
I am broken, torn apart
Take the pieces of this heart
And heal the wound but leave the scar

I have not lived a life that boasts of anything
I don't take pride in what I bring
But I'll build an altar with
The rubble that You've found me in
And every stone will sing
Of what You can redeem

Heal the wound but leave the scar
A reminder of how merciful You are
I am broken, torn apart
Take the pieces of this heart
And heal the wound but leave the scar

Don't let me forget
Everything You've done for me
Don't let me forget
The beauty in the suffering

Heal the wound but leave the scar
A reminder of how merciful You are
I am broken, torn apart
Take the pieces of this heart
And heal the wound but leave the scar

We Lit the Night

The girls and I took part in Light the Night Walk in Indianapolis on Saturday. We had a team of about 50 people walking in honor of my dad. It was amazing! I'd like to thank ALL of those who participated - through walking alongside us or by making a generous donation to the Leukemia & Lymphoma Society. Thank you, friends! You are a blessing to me, to my daddy and my family! I had a wonderful time making lots of priceless memories last weekend. It was perfect.

For other news - Kirah and Kenah have both been dealing with a bad cold. Coughs, runny noses, the whole shabang. I'm hoping they are better soon. They don't act like they feel horrible, just more annoying for them than anything. They had to get their flu shots today. Kirah cried her eyes out. Big tears too...the kind of tears that make mommy sad. Kenah grunted. As in, "stop it. that's really ticking me off!" Go figure.

Brent is out of town this weekend. Be back late tomorrow night. Kenah cried when he left this morning. She adores her daddy. Kirah said to Kenah (and I quote), "it's okay. don't cry. he'll be back very soon baby girl."

Got the house cleaned today. I love having a clean house!

Hoping to get some organizing done tomorrow. I need to clean out my kitchen cabinets and my bathroom closet something fierce. They are a wreck. Fall cleaning, not spring cleaning.

I got nothing else. Have a good weekend!

on a scale of 1-10...

This morning I came downstairs and Kirah, who was standing on the bottom step eating a pop tart, said "Mommy, I love you". I said "Oh, baby I love you too. How much do you love Mommy?" She said "Um, four." I laughed, thinking that was the cutest thing ever. Then, I started thinking and discussing with Brent. It dawned on me that on a scale of 1-10, four is not too good. Brent assured me that Kirah's scale was probably 1-4. So, to ease my mind we asked her, "Kirah, what's the highest number on your scale?" Her answer? "45."

I think Mommy has some work to do. :)

yes, i'm still alive. :)

1. It's been awhile since I've blogged. Been busy, but really I just haven't been in the mood.
2. The girls and I are heading to IN this weekend. My family and friends are taking part in Light the Night Walk in Indianapolis in honor of my daddy. I am really looking forward to it. I know it will be very special and my dad will leave the walk feeling loved and supported more than he probably ever has.
3. I am working at Kohls now, for those who didn't already know. Just Thursdays and an occasional Saturday morn. Only a few hours a week. It's been good, but I can say I don't love it. Not yet anyway.
4. Kenah Jo had allergy testing last week. Tested negative for anything and pretty much everything. This means we still don't really know what is causing hives. Dr. sais it could just be any underlying infection that may come about from time to time. In most people, we'd never know there was anything but because of her IGA issues, it "works itself out" through the hives. I dunno. Still confused about it all, to be honest. Also, her tubes (in her ears) have already fallen out. They are supposed to last about a year. She's had them 4 months now. The icing on the cake? We still have $700 to pay for that surgery! Isn't that awesome? Ha. She's had an ear infection (as of last week). Dr. said we'll wait to see what happens through the winter. Hopefully we don't have to have another surgery.
5. My sister had a pretty involved knee surgery last week. I'll be staying to take care of her for a couple days next week. I'm looking forward to that too, actually. I haven't spent time alone with my sis for years.
6. I'm so imperfect. Inadequate. Selfish. Unstable. Superficial. I feel so unworthy. Today I am speechless because I realize my God and the ones my God has given me love me anyway. Wow.
7. I'm thankful for friends and for family. The ones who love me for me. The good, bad and ugly. The ones who love me in it and through it. Know that I love you for it.
8. Here's the verse that God's given me just this week... Proverbs 3:5&6 "Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don't try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for God's voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; he's the one who will keep you on track."

More later. :)