Jesus. Jesus. Jesus.

Update on my baby: Went to the allergist this morning. It was very informational for us. However, Kenah had to have a blood test today to look for an immune defiency. We've been told that there's a chance the hives she's had are a result of this. My dad was diagnosed with the defiency recently, and just last night I learned that it can be hereditary. Yesterday and today have been very difficult for me. I told a friend today it's been bizarre the waves of emotion that I've felt. One moment I find myself very optomistic and sure my baby's just fine. Five minutes later I am crying, feeling discouraged and scared.

What has yet to be understood is why the prescription strength meds. have only taken the hives down for a few hours, but never taken them away (which is usually the case with allergies). IF Kenah has this and the hives are not some random allergy, she will have to receive infusions (my dad has received them about once a month) to assist her body in making up for what it lacks. My dad was unaware of having this condition for many years and that is what lead to his lymphoma. The allergist did assure me today that if Kenah is in fact facing this challenge, it doesn't neccesarily mean she'll have it forever. She could grow out of it by the time she's 10 or 15 years old.

Here's how amazing God is: Tonight I was struggling throughout choir practice. Just feeling scared, worried...We began singing a song that speaks of the name of Jesus and the power in His name - Jesus. Jesus. Jesus. Something special, Supernatural. Something happens when I call on your name. Then, Scott shared a verse in Joshua..."I will never leave you or forsake you." The Holy Spirit came over me and it was as if Jesus was holding me closer to Him than I've ever been. It was absolutly amazing. Words cannot begin to express the peace I felt in that moment. I knew at the very minute I wanted Kenah to be anointed and prayed over. It couldn't wait either. So, I found Pastor Mark and my family and we began to pray together as she was anointed. As we were lifting her up to the Lord, I heard the choir begin to sing...Jesus. Jesus. Jesus. Jesus. Jesus. Jesus....something special, Supernatural....

God is amazing. He has taken this restless, worried, unsettled, anxious mother's heart and filled it with peace. Peace. I love my Jesus and I know He loves my Kenah Jo even more than I ever could.